On to the next journey

So the countdown for heading home begins. At first I didn’t really know why I must go back to Australia but this strong feeling inside has told me to go. I know it must be a good idea, because as I sit on the boat back from Lembongan I smile to myself at the thought of arriving back home to Australia. The gut feeling I get, I got the morning I decided to come to Bali in the first place and it was the best decision I have ever made. So I must trust this feeling and go with what my heart is telling me, it hasn’t seemed to fail me too many times before. Of course it’s hard to let go of an amazing lifestyle, great job, great friends, perfect waves, sunshine, delicious food, but I finally got what I wanted. I read my first post this evening and I did everything that I wanted to do and more. I came here to experience a different way of life, teach, learn, design, write and surf. I did that and so much more. I learnt so much about myself and human beings. I now feel grounded and centered. I know who I am and I know what I want. I feel I’m ready to fall back in love with my home, and that’s something I also needed from this trip, I needed to realize how amazing we have it in Australia. Of course Bali has so much to offer but home is where the heart is. I missed Asia because I grew up here but it doesn’t mean I can’t have both in my life and I think I always will. I will always come back to Bali maybe sooner than I think myself, but right now I’m excited to see family, friends and explore all the amazing opportunities Australia has to offer. I feel that I am ready to take on a completely new life in Australia and I look forward to it. I want to take what I have learnt here with me forever. I healed beyond what I imagined, I feel so much love for all around me now, something I didn’t have 12 months ago. I thank all the amazing people I have met and I thank everyone who has supported me through this amazing rollercoaster ride. Paradise has been fun but it’s also the wild wild west (my beautiful friends nickname for the place). With a paradise with so much freedom you have little values or very diversified values which means a lot of those so called morals, ethics and rules go completely out the window, which is cool in some ways, but when it comes down to your livelihood or heart it kinda sux. So those rules that used to drive me mad, might be nice for a month or two just to keep me in line, check with me next week though, they might all be driving me mad by then ha. The wild wild west is also so transitional its hard to keep that tight community, mine has started to grow and become really tight just as I go which is a little sad but I know it will always be here, I think we will all come and go. Bali is like a drug once you’ve had a little you want more, but some times you can over do it and need some time out, that’s kinda what I’m feeling. I want familiar faces, hugs and a good glass of wine, I want to surf with my brother and hug my little dog gypsy, I want to smell the sweet ocean on a crisp winter morning, I want a damn good coffee after a winter surf sitting in my uggies and hoody watching perfect 4ft off shore. I just want this for a little while haha!! Then give me perfect 4ft waves at Canggu in my bikini, sipping on an Alben cider at sunset. See I want the best of both worlds, but maybe I’ll get it, I hope so.

Bali its been a pleasure, I love you with all my heart and I hope to see you soon, you rock and always stay true to yourself, don’t let those big hot shot millionaires steal your heart, soul and land. I’ll be keeping an eye on you.

Hati Hati, Rue Benida, Cantik, mimpi manis, cinta and tidak apa apa. All my favourite Indonesian words.

Just because I head home to Australia does not mean that my blog stops. Go check my blog site out again. You will see it has already evolved. It’s now me as a whole, you will see some of my design work, examples of my published writing, stuff just for me and there are a few more pages that will evolve as I head back to Australia, also go a few more surprises in store. It will be more active than before because now my blog is every little bit of the dreaming gypsy girl exposed. I hope you have enjoyed the journey with me so far, this is just the beginning, there is so much more to come, so please keep following me, I love and thank you for the support.

miss you

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